Im starting to think that this com is the cause of all my problems.Life fills like a downward spiral where everything just sucks (into a black hole the size of a pinhead). Results sucks. The blog sucks. My subjects keep going down and my friends go up? Now i know the CAs suck but this could not get worse... I think of myself as a contender for 1st in class(yeahhh im a dork.Watever), but that big $1000 just burns a hole in my pocket. What do i do? People with somehow better lives are getting ahead of me(emo)and i seriously need to get a grip on life. not that my life is bad or anything. its just like floating in the clouds above Mt.Everest, with 1/3 as much oxygen everything looks like Miley Cyrus.... I promised myself a thousand times over to do it but it seems to elude me...
There are days when the veil seems to like be lifted and i could "see the light", feel happy not from pressure but freedom. Then something always bringings me down to earth, hitting me on the head, pounding my heart with adrenaline.
I get easily influenced by everything around me, even this post is influenced.Its hard to control attraction but i feel im done with addiction. Thess days its impossible to think that you can feel good. It feels for 1 moment good then 1000 moments of mortified.I try to get light-hearted and most times do.This year was supposed to be a honey-moon and yet it feels like a goon.
So? What do i do?
I trust in GOD to give me strength.I keep myself from wandering.
I read less,I read more.
Best of all,I ENJOY life through him , (even tiny things around you, good deeds like lending a hand), and it will get better.
Maybe writing this post will change my life.I always like to end on a high to make me feel good like eating the best nugget last at every meal and i feel better already.
The good things in life are the things around u. Treasure them and they will treasure u. A boomerang filled with kindness and joy will always come back someday.I just released mine, and GOD will guide its way.
And still, i consider myself a non-emo guy.....
-results another time.
